Many thoughts and feelings run through our hearts and minds at this time! Time with God is of utmost importance, to talk to Him and sort out all that has happened! In many ways, some things have become clearer and other things we have to practice our trust in our God! The good news is that we have gotten to know the most wonderful and only God of this universe! We know ALL His plans are good, even though they do not feel good or seem good! We believe some day He will share why he took Kole at such a young age from loving parents who loved God! For an example of how we can be mistaken, we have seen in our environment such things that we thought we were helping God out and the opposite has held true. I have heard of a story (my facts might not be exact) where a country had brought in snakes to eat poison frogs to get rid of the danger of the poison frogs. The snakes became poisonous and the problem became much worse! We trust that God knows what He is doing and for that reason His way is best for Kole and the Kellers! If we would try to force our way (which would be impossible) I believe that we would miss out on God's best design! We did, however, do all we could do to pester and beg God for what we wanted! We even had many believers help in petitioning before His throne! For God to veto our petition for Kole's continued life here, must have meant we were lacking understanding of some unknown factors. God basically said He had a better idea and to trust Him. We as humans are so limited in our understanding of things. We live a relatively short time period! We see little of the past and none of the future. We live only at one place at one time and only experience a small portion of the geographical locations of this earth! Our minds are limited and flawed! Our morality is flawed! What we might think sounds and looks right sometimes can be dead wrong to God! We as believers see ourselves underneath His loving wings and underneath His authority. There is only room for God to be on the throne of our lives! He decides and we stay in awe of Him bowed at His feet! He is all loving and all kind. God is beyond time! It will be no time at all before Kole sees us again. Time is not important in heaven! Time was created by God when He created this earth and the heavens that surround us! That is how we have our lunar calender and our 24 hour day! God is everywhere all the time! God made the past, makes the present, and is the future. We are limited by time and space! We did not get to walk this earth when Christ walked, we believe so much and have experienced so little.

He sees our hearts and is able to fully love us and mold us to be more like Him! He gives us experience and understanding, if we allow Him! God gives true ever lasting joy and peace and love. It does not come from everything going smoothly in our lives! We could have gotten to keep a healthy Kole with us and yet experience a deep dark depression. Getting what we want, does not guarentee our happiness. True joy is not based on anything but Christ alone.I have always longed to be married and have children. I have gotten that and yet what I was so graciously given was not enough to give me joy. Christ has given me all joy and all love. My family is a bonus. We also realize that this earth, is not our home! God does not want us to be too comfortable here making His creation "our god" and our all! We can easily make this earth our focus, people our focus, careers our focus, entertainment our focus, nature our focus, hobbies our focus, materialism our focus and ourselves our focus! God wants Himself to be our focus! He wants us looking to the cross and not ever taking it forgranted that we have been redeemed by the blood of the Lamb! He wants us not living for this earth where every living thing must die! He wants us living for His Kingdom, where every living being will live for all eternity! I believe God when He whispered to my heart that Kole will live! He lives as our Lord lives in the unseen heavenly realm! We believe, have faith and trust in that more than anything! We believed God for Kole to be healed here, and Kole was not! That does not make our faith null and void! It just says that God chose a better plan for our faith, a faith that takes more wait. We will wait to experience Kole's healing with our senses! We did not see Kole's healing yet, though we know it has happened! Just like it took 120 years for Noah to experience the promised flood to occur, all the time preparing the Ark for that moment! We have to wait to see the healing that heaven promises. We will not have to wait 120 years to experience Kole's promised healing. But while we do wait, we will be preparing the "Arks of our hearts"!

God was good and kind and loving all the way! No person brought peace in those last hours. It was only God and His Word! How can God love us through death? How can He not? For that was what was required of Himself! His death led to life and Kole's death led to life. Kole is alive and well! He has helped to take our eyes off of this dying world and up unto Jesus and His heavenly Kingdom! That is the future vacation we are looking forward to in the future! We want many to come with us! All are invited! Kole would be pleased to show you all, his new healthy body, the beautiful body of Christ seated around the throne, and of course Christ! "Oh what manner of love the Father has given unto to us---to behold the beauty, the beauty of the Lord and to inquire in His temple"! We do not know true undying, unending, unyielding, surrounding love yet.....the best is yet to come! We should feel sorry for ourselves that we have to wait! I believe that Judah was such a promise of new life to Janni and Steve! No one could replace Kole and no one can replace God! God just gives us hope through His creation, and through new birth!Judah is evidence of God's handiwork and God did a beautiful work forming Judah in his mother's womb. God performs a beautiful work in birth, of which we see now---- and in death, in which we do not see yet. God knows we need something to see and touch while we wait! This new baby who lays curled up on our shoulder is such a reminder of the glory that is to come. I have learned that there is glory in death---for those who believe in Christ and who are called according to His purpose.The darkness of death comes in not believing!

I love this chorus "In Christ Alone"

In Christ alone my hope is found
He is my light, my strength, my song
This Cornerstone, this Solid Ground
Firm through the fiercest drought and storm
What heights of love, what depths of peace
When fears are stilled, when striving cease
My comforter, my All in All
Here in the love of Christ I stand

In Christ alone who took on flesh
Fullness of God in helpless babe
This gift of love and righteousness
Scorned by the ones He came to save
Till on that cross as Jesus died
The wrath of God was satisfied
For every sin on Him was laid
Here in the death of Christ I live

There in the ground His body lay
Light of the world by darkness slain
Then bursting forth in glorious day
Up from the grave He arose again
And as He stands in victory
Sin's curse has lost its grip on me
For I am His and He is mine
Bought with the precious blood of Christ

No guilt in life, no fear in death
This is the power of Christ in me
From life's first cry to final death
Jesus commands my destiny
No power of hell, no schemes of man
Can ever pluck me from HIS HAND
Till He returns or calls me home
Here in the power of Christ I stand

Jodi